By Satheesh Bennet
When the Gospel of the New Covenant began, it began with John the Baptist saying “Repent, for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand” (Matthew 3:2). Many who were prostitutes and tax collectors repented and were baptized (Matthew 21:32) but the Pharisees and Sadducees were denounced by John because they had not truly repented by the way they lived (Matthew 3:8). True repentance is not just a confession of the tongue but a total change in direction of our hearts toward God and this is evidenced by the new life we live.
After John was arrested, Jesus took up the ministry of the New Covenant and began preaching. His first message again was “Repent, for the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand” (Matthew 4:17). Throughout the scriptures we see that it was the publicans, tax collectors and adulterers who repented and turned to Him while the religious teachers and leaders could hardly accept that they had to repent.
On the day of Pentecost, Peter and all the believers with him were anointed with the Holy Spirit (Acts 2:2-4). After that Peter took up the ministry of the New Covenant for the first time and began preaching to the crowd gathered there. His message again was “Repent and be baptized for the forgiveness of your sins and you will receive the Holy Spirit” (Acts 2:38). Paul who was one of the greatest apostles of the New Covenant also preached saying “Repent and turn to God performing deeds appropriate to repentance” (Acts 26:20).
With such persistent teaching of repentance, it is evident that a life of repentance is critical to living the New Covenant life. But what does it truly mean to live a life of repentance and turning to God? The apostle Paul gives us a glimpse into his life that helps understand what such a life means. We all know how the Lord Jesus met with Paul (then known as Saul) on the road to Damascus and radically changed his life.
- Sometime after Paul began his ministry, he addresses himself as “the least of the apostles” (1 Corinthians 15:9).
- A few years later he calls himself “the least of all the Lord’s People” (Ephesians 3:8).
- Finally, towards the end of his life, Paul calls himself “the foremost (greatest) of sinners” (1 Timothy 1:15).
The closer Paul walked with the Lord Jesus in his everyday life, the more he saw sin and un-Christlike areas in his life. How did Paul respond to the light he received from the Lord on his life? He constantly repented and turned away from everything in his life that fell short of the Glory of God (Romans 3:23). In fact, he repented more towards the end of his life than when he was persecuting believers during the earlier part of his life. This was not because he was sinning more but because he was gaining more light on his life and that showed him greater and greater areas that were not aligned to God’s glory. Paul pressed on with repentance all through his life and never settled with the sins he had overcome in the past. Just like any student would want to press on to go to the next grade and not be content with just knowing the alphabets and numbers while at kindergarten. Paul would have been sensitized to sin to such a degree that he would have been judging even his thoughts and motives and attitudes and unspoken words to see if there was any sin in them.
When Jesus rebuked Peter in Matthew 16:23, it was not because of anything Peter had done or said. It was because Peter was not setting his mind on God’s interests but on human interests. As a disciple, Peter was now being shown sin in his thoughts and interests that no one could ever know. It was not just the sin on the outside that mattered but also sin on the inside. This is the kind of sin that Paul would have been repenting from to the end of his life and no wonder he could genuinely see himself as the greatest sinner because he was never comparing himself with others or even with his former self but instead with Jesus Christ.
When we live a life of repentance, there are two primary indicators that could tell us if we truly are living such a life.
The first indicator is that we would be constantly judging ourselves and not judging others. We would be judging our motives and thoughts and actions and unspoken words. Only by judging ourselves would we receive light from the Lord and be able to repent of sin. When we are faithful to judge ourselves in the light the Lord gives us, there will be nothing left for the Lord Jesus to judge in us when He comes to judge the world (1 Corinthians 11:31).
The second indicator is that we would be humble and unable to look down on anyone else. In Luke 18, Jesus speaks about a parable but specifically addresses it to an audience, to those who trusted in themselves that they were righteous and viewed others with contempt (Luke 18:9). Here He speaks about the parable of Pharisee and the Publican who were praying. The Pharisee had a right standing in himself and his self-righteousness and was able to look down on the others. He had a clear record of what he had done for the Lord (fasting and tithing) and came to the Lord on his own merit. The Publican on the other hand could not dare to lift his face to the Lord because he was judging himself. He saw how un-Christlike he was and said, “God be merciful to me, THE sinner!” (Luke 18:13). The publican genuinely believed that he was THE sinner (only sinner) there and judged himself. He could not look down upon anyone else and exalt himself. Jesus then goes on to say that the Publican went home justified and those who exalted themselves would be humbled and those who humbled themselves would be exalted (Luke 18: 14). Jesus came to call those know they are sinners and need to repent and not those who think they are righteous and need no repentance (Luke 5:32).
May the Lord help us always live a life of constant repentance.